Monday, April 26, 2010
So we started praying. I went out and got my passport and was ready to go to Ethiopia. We really thought I was suppose to go. About a week ago, we started feeling like this wasn't the right time for me to go. We started thinking that the money spent on the trip could go towards our adoption fund. BUT we believed I was handed this opportunity to highlight this particular agency for us. So in saying all that. I'm a little sad that I couldn't go on this trip, but am really thrilled that God didn't let us get too far with Gladney, before correcting us to the way He was leading us to go. As of yesterday, we officially switched agencies. It had nothing at all to do with anything Gladney had done wrong. They were great and extrememly helpful. It was simply God saying this is where I want you to go. We believe there is a specific child out there for us, and also a later opportunity with all the connections we have to go on future mission trips with this wonderful ministry. So there you have it, in case you were waiting and wondering. We took our time with the prayer before making anymore split decisions.
Also, stay tuned for a raffle on my blog very soon. We need quite a bit of money just to get started ,so we are going to raffle off a beautiful cross my husband made. He has such a talent for taking a piece of wood from a hollowed out oak tree and making a spectacular rugged cross out of it to hang on YOUR wall. Do me a favor, when you see the post about the raffle, please help spread the word. We would be so grateful!
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Yesterday I had it on my heart to read in the Bible where it talks about putting on the armor of God, and I couldn't find it. For some reason I thought it was in Hebrews, so I read all of Hebrews instead. When I was done, I book marked my Bible to the last page of Hebrews and the first of James, and closed my Bible and left it on my nightstand. That night when I got ready to go to bed I looked over and my Bible was open. I reached over to close it and my eyes immediately fell on Ephesians 6:10 "A final word, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on all of God's armor so that you will be able to stand firm against all strategies of the devil. For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in the dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places. Therefore, put on every piece of God's armor so you will be able to resist the enemy in the time of evil. Then after the battle, you will still be standing firm. Stand your ground, putting on the belt of truth and the body armor of God's righteousness. For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News so that you will be fully prepared. In addition to all these, hold up the shield of faith to stop the fiery arrows of the devil. Put on salvation as your helmet, and take the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God. "
I did a double take and asked Aaron if he had opened my Bible. He told me that he hadn't touched it! Even if he had, he had no idea I was looking for that earlier.
Isn't it funny when God does that! I love His gentle encouragement and was so thankful for this gift and reminder from Him.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Have I mentioned before that I have an awesome husband? I just want to brag a little on the man behind this woman. He's always positive and so full of faith. I don't know if I can remember a time when he worried about money. When my faith is low, Aaron's is always high. He keeps reminding me that it's not easy because God is stretching us and growing us along the way. I totally believe that, but can be whiny about it too. Aaron encourages me to always see the Jesus in every situation. It's not hard to do, when I have a man who to me mirrors the heart of Jesus and cheers me on. When I am feeling beat down, he'll say "Honey put on your shield of faith." I'm a blessed woman!
So anyway, if I sound a little down in this post, it's because I kinda am, but I am still full of hope. I am holding on tight to that!
Our pastor, Keith has been doing a series at our church on seeds. Pretty much for the last 3 Sundays, they have been words that I felt were spoken just for me. I love that I can go and get refreshed and learn something new each week. He talked about holding onto your commitments and not letting go, and not going to a place of apathy but running after those commitments. So that is what we are gonna do. Our whole time of waiting is over. We are ready to move forward. We have felt like God is saying, 'What are you waiting for? I said go, now run.'
So we will run the race.
"So therefore since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely and let us run with endurance this race that is set before us." Heb. 12:1
I will be posting some changes we have decided on soon.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
No one to hold you or call you their own.
Struggling from day to day to find food to eat.
Desperate for a tender touch or a kiss on your cheek.
Labeled unlovable by most everyone around you,
you struggle to understand your identity and this life that surrounds you.
You wonder what love is and does it really exist.
There has to be more to life than this.
Daydreaming daily of someone to save you.
If you only knew how much Jesus loved you.
Though it seems you are alone, sweet one you surely are not.
You have a Savior who gave His life and loves you with all that He's got.
You are His favorite one, loved from the time you were made.
A life with a purpose, beautifully and wonderfully made.
So hold on to Hope and stay strong little man.
For you have a family that already loves you in another land.
God has laid you on our hearts and we will soon be together,
Can't wait to meet you and be a family forever.
We'll travel the world over to bring you home.
We will be your forever family, but for now remember that you are surely not alone.
We pray for you daily for God's protection and favor.
He is a God who Loves Justice. He is your Savior.
You are on His heart and you are surely on ours.
He is leading us to you little man so be strong through these waiting hours.
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Monday, April 5, 2010
This is why I haven't updated on the adoption publicly lately. I really haven't had the words. My heart has been too heavy. It honestly has been so very frustrating to want something so badly and have such a deep deep desire for something, and then God says...."Wait, there's something else...." There is that one opportunity that I mentioned, but there is this other part, that is still uncertain of what He is wanting us to wait on. Did that make sense? We know we are for sure called, we just don't know what it is going to look like totally. But we do know His timing is perfect. And we don't want to do it any way other than His way.
In saying this though, my heart hurts. I am SOOOOO ready to get started and SOOOOOO ready to be a mama to a hurting baby that needs to feel the love of a mom and dad. Just to let anyone who doubts know, this isn't some crazy idea that we have come up with. This is real, something that we think about a thousand times a day, something we pray with our kids about everyday, a true hurt that we feel on a daily basis, sort of like a hole....feels like something missing. It's a burden and a passion. It's so important to us. We are forever changed! It's hard to explain unless you have felt it. Please be in prayer for clear direction and for provision for us. That would be so awesome and appreciated!
I will post the changes I mentioned above when we reach a definite decision.
Thursday, April 1, 2010
I have to say that I am not ready to be that busy, but I am thankful in advance for how the Lord will provide and bless us this year.