Last week before we got the news that our paperwork was signed off on, our stomachs were in knots. A lot of crying and praying, and crying and praying was going on over here for that miracle! SO GLAD WE GOT OUR MIRACLE...whew!
After meeting our sweet boy we couldn't even imagine having to wait an extra 2 months to go get him. It was harder than we expected leaving him, just having to wait, and there was nothing we could do about it. EVERYTIME I prayed, the Lord asked me to fast and worship. So one morning for breakfast I decided I would take that time to do this. I put in the movie "Soul Surfer" for the girls...which they LOVE, and made them a little picnic palet in my room on the floor for breakfast, and I went in another room and turned on the worship and hit my knees. I prayed for us, and the other families we traveled with, I prayed for rain, ( We have had a drought and major heat wave in Texas and we are farmers), and I prayed for provision, I read from the Bible and just sang out worship. During this time I was getting frustrated because I wasn't feeling God's presence. I was thinking in my mind, is He hearing me? Is He here?
After a while, I got up and called it quits. I went into the room where my girls were and went to the bathroom to get ready for the day. Aubrey...my three-year-old, comes in and says to me,"Mommy, I want you to go get baby Josiah and bring him home." I told her that I did too,so badly. She said, "But momma, I want you to go get him today. I want him today." I said, 'me too sweetie.'
Then she said, " And mommy, I want it to rain too." Ok...at this point my eyes got really big, because I knew this wasn't something she would EVER say on her own, and there was no possible way she heard me. Then I heard that whisper in my head, "I hear you, and I see you."
WOW! Thank you Lord for speaking through my little Aubrey! She was reiterating my prayers! It was a turning point for my attitude and gave me such a peace that God definitely hears us, and sees us, all the time. He also showed me by speaking through my little girl, that He longs for us to come to Him like little children, to lean on Him, and cry out to Him. He wants us to come to HIM for help. He is our Heavenly Father, and He loves us so much, and He is so faithful! I knew at that point, whatever the Lord saw best to do in our situation, that it was best! He knows the things we do not, and I trust Him! I am so thankful He is such a personal God, who is just waiting on us to run to Him! So Friday we got our papers in and signed...PRAISE HIM! and then Saturday was just the icing on the cake. As Aaron was loading the truck for the farmer's market that morning, he comes in and says "It's lightening!" He looks on the computer at the radar and all over there are little storms popping up. We went to the market that morning and happily had to set up getting wet in the rain. It didn't pour, but it rained pretty steady for about 2 hours. It was so wonderful! It had been 40 some odd days here without rain!
Now, no, I am not so arrogant to think that God did that just for us! There were so many people here in Texas praying for that rain! It was for everyone!!!!But He made me feel like it was, and it was definitely the icing on the cake! He is so sweet and good!